nose bleeding literally and the notion of a bloody canvass

kahapon, nag-nose bleed ang pinsan ko na itatago na lang natin sa pangalang , verlyn. nagdugo ang ilong niya pagkatapos kong sabihing isa siyang 'bourgeois pretending to be the voice of the majority'. pero syempre joke lang iyon. katatapos lang naming manood ng kokey o nanonood ng kokey ng biglang umagos ang sanlaksang dugo mula sa kanang butas ng kanyang ilong.

syempre, nagworry ako. tinanong ko sa kanya kung gaano ka-frequent ang pagdudugo ng kanyang ilong. at kung nag patingin na ba sya sa doktor.

dito sa dubai, sa mahal ng check-up, hindi ko masisisi ang pinsan ko kung estranghero sya sa salitang doctor at clinic. (iranian hospital - 50dirhams - equivalent to 600pesos-ni hindi ka nga nila hahawakan o gagamitan ng stethoscope tpos sisingilin ka ng 600pesos!absurd! (=^.^=))

makalipas ang ilang sandali, nalasahan nya ang maalat at malansang dugo sa bibig nya. ok sa all right, pati sa bibig lumalabas ang dugo.

sa isang taong nawalan ng nanay, at naging factor ng maaga nyang pag-uwi sa orig nyang hometown ay ang aming obvious negligence, mas naging cautious na ako sa lahat ng uri ng symptoms ng pagkakasakit. yung kay mama kasi highblood sya at madalas ang nose bleeding nya at may obvious amount of blood whenever she spits. (or spat?)

(hindi lang streak. naisip ko pwede n syang gumawa ng abstract painting sa pagdura nya sa isang blank canvass kaso lang 'magiging madugo yun panigurado')

sana ma-realize ni kazin na isa lang ang buhay ng tao and gift ito sa atin ni Lord, dapat pangalagaan at hindi i-taken for granted.

mind and eyes in pain, with fingers continuing to strike

napadaan ako sa site na ito naaliw akong sagutan ang mga tanong na nasa articles. Well, magaganda ang pagkaka-kone-konekta ng mga tanong at naisip kong makakatulong siyang kilalanin ang sarili mo at ang karerang tipo mong sundan.

Heto nga pala ang mga tanong at payo ko, kung katulad ko kayong praning at malayo lagi ang lipad ng utak dahil hindi pa kayo settled masyado sa work nyo, sagutan niyo rin ito.

1. What subjects do you most enjoy reading about?

Philosophy, Art, Current events, Memoirs/autobiographies of novelists (they have so much to tell, their lives are juicy)

2. What television or radio programs do you most enjoy?

Series, Mind Boggling Ones, Mystery, Court Room Drama, Crime Solving

3. What are your favorite types of movies?

Sci-fi, Suspense, Mystery, True to life, Heart warming, Romantic with sense

4. What are your favorite hobbies or pastimes?

Reading, surfing the net, thinking, day dreaming, blogging

5. What type of volunteer activities do you prefer?

Teaching

6. What subjects do you enjoy discussing with friends?

Literature, Life, Films, Art, Media Research, Principles and views, How can Christian principles be applied to life

7. What subjects come to mind when you daydream?

Reflections, Principles, Literature, film, Wild story plots

8. What have been your favorite jobs?

Researcher, being the database Analyst

9. What were your favorite school subjects?

English, Literature, Theater, Film, Argumentation and Debate with Ms. Kibanoff-Mercado, Speech with the masungit na prof

10. What are your pet peeves?

Grammatical errors, Construction of sentences, clarity of statement, consistency, loopholes in films, totally confusing plots

11. If you doodle, what do you often draw?

Smileys J , Series of unintelligible Lines, Question marks and exclamation points

12. If you ran the world, what changes would you make?

I’ll impose that everyone read books especially the Bible so that they will be able to see the positive effects of living in a God-fearing society, I will make them more reflective of their own lives, I will make a more systematic society with lesser red tape.

13. If you won a million bucks, what would you do with it?

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I’ll give 50% to my church in TBC. I’ll donate in Bantay Bata. I’ll insure the education of my nephews/nieces. I’ll buy a laptop and an XDA atom. I’ll buy many books and build a mansion along the seashore. I’ll give my brothers and sisters enough capital for their businesses. I’ll buy a house with an attic and read and read and read.

14. What are your favorite kinds of people?

Full of humour. Reflective. Talks with sense and wit. With nice smelling breath. Loves music. Honest with themselves. Not so flamboyant (just enough). Rare. Love books. Principled. God-fearing.

15. How would you like to be remembered after your death?

As a disciple of God. A woman, who loves joyously, reads selectively and thinks silly stuffs.

16. What are your favorite toys?

Bart Simpson and Barbie with her house. J Maze, puzzle.

17. How would you describe your political beliefs?

I believe that the government should run with laws that are based on the bible. Led by God-fearing people, skilled, capable and with humour.

18. Who do you most admire in life and why?

William Wilberforce and Paul. William Wilberforce possesses a very wild humour which he took as an advantage over the opposition to fight for what he think is right. Paul is a model disciple of God and lived according to what he preached. And also David. His poems are majestic because those were dedicated to the King of kings.

19. What tasks have brought you the most success?

Research, reading, debate, systems

20. What tasks do you think you could do well that you haven't yet done?

Fix a computer and come up with a unique computer program

I am mainly interested in…

Philosophy, Art, Solving Mystery, Reflections, Reading, Research, Literature, Clashes of Ideas, Diversity, Film, Books, Learning, Humor, Poems, Laptop.

time's passing by and the fire's getting cold

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 79%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is High You have a great understanding of who you are, and your place in the world. You know what path you're on. And you are excited about your future. You're always deepening your inner knowledge and introspection. And enjoying it every step of the way.

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

What Your Favorite Color Red Says About You:

Ambitious --- Energetic --- Passionate Spontaneous --- Attractive --- Inspiring Seductive --- Powerful --- Addicting

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

How Cluttered is Your Mind?

Your Mind is 49% Cluttered

Your mind is starting to get cluttered, and as a result, it's a little harder for you to keep focused. Try to let go of your pettiest worries and concerns. The worrying is worse than the actual problems!

How Cluttered is Your Mind?

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

Should You Get a New Job?

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 47%

Your job is about average. There are some parts you really enjoy, and some parts that stress you out. It's possible that you need a small change. Maybe you should switch companies or positions. It's also possible that you're simply burned out. No job is perfect, even a great one. Give yourself a personal day to think about your career goals - and if your current job is helping you achieve them.

Should You Get a New Job?

day of morons and not so moronic

ngayong araw na ito, marami rami akong nabasa mula sa mga iba't ibang bloggers ukol sa isyu ng relihiyon. ang galing galing nung ibang bloggers, in terms of writing and intentional pun. pero sa totoo lang, nalilito ako sa kanila. naipagkakamali kasi nila ang pagkakakilala sa Diyos at ang pagsunod nila sa relihiyon nila. nagiging atheist tuloy yung iba dahil nariri-mariman na sila sa kinalakhan nilang 'programming'.

ewan ko ba kung kailan naimbento ang relihiyon.
hindi naman ito ang sentro dapat ng usapin.

dapat ang Diyos. hindi ko rin malubos maisip kung bakit naniniwala silang walang Diyos. nabasa ko sa libro ni Olaudah Equiano, isang african slave na kasamahan ni William Wilberforce, sa kanyang autobiography, ang nigeria ay hindi inabot ng krusada ng anumang relihiyon nung kanyang kabataan. bagaman ganito, maituturing nyang may takot sa isang dakilang nilalang ang kanyang mga ka-tribo. naniniwala sila na may isang dakilang bagay o nilalang ang may likha ng lahat ng nakikita nila.


nasa tribo sila at salat sa modernong sibilisasyon pero kahit kailan hindi nila inakalang sa unggoy nagmula ang tao. at hindi sila atheist.

anyway, second day ng masasaya kong araw. nasa bakasyon si jen, boss ko. 2 weeks pa syang mwawala kaya hindi ko alam kung ano pang pampa-busy ang gagawin ko sa office.

for the meantime, personality test from blogthings

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Shelfari made my day!

isa sa mga naging kaibigan ko na sa net, si pao, ang nag-introduced sa akin sa shelfari, isang online community site kung saan nagtatagpo ang mga duling at malabo ang mga matang kagaya ko. joke. isa syang website ng mga bibliophiles. para syang friendster, dangan lamang na sa halip na paramihan ng testimonies, dito naman ay maaari kang mangolekta sa iyong account ng mga librong nabasa mo na at binabasa pa lamang. malaya ka ring makapag-post ng comment/reviews/annoyance/ - hindi sa tao - kungdi sa librong binabasa/binasa mo.

oh di ba ang cool! sana ang lahat ng tao sa mundo may shelfari account para masaya...

so far ito pa lamang ang mga naidadag-dag ko sa shelf ko:
twisted and womenagerie and other tales from the front by J. Zafra
knight in shining armor by jude deveraux
the load road home by daniel steele
master of the game b s.sheldon
eleven minutes and by the river piedra I sat down and wept by p.coelho
the interesting narrative of the life of Olaudah Equiano by himself
purpose driven life by rick warren
who moved my cheese by s.johnson
sidney's the other side of me
S.King's - on writing


at maraming marami pa kong gustong idagdag.... so abangan ang susunod na kabanata...

yahoooooooooo!!!!! akin na si flickr!

wow! na-aacess ko na ang flicker! ang lufet! wala akong masabi. it so happen na may isang tao na nagngangalang ahmed na gumawa ng isa sa mga ground breaking invention - firefox add ons! weeeeeeeeeeee!!!! lufets! here's the link para naman ma-enjoy nyo na muli ang flickr!

(masayang balita ito sa mga taong nasa middle east at nagtatanggal na lang ng muta sa yamot dahil hindi nla mabuksan ang flickr account nila. wahahahaha!!! etisalat! sa amin ang huling halakhak!)

kinikilig

paano maging blogger?

una, pumunta sa www.blogger.com

pangalawa, kung wala ka pang gmail account, it's time para magkaroon na!

ang username mo at ang password mo sa gmail ay sya ring magsisilbing username at password mo sa blog mo.

pangatlo, pumili ng blog title at blog address (siguraduhing ang mga sumusunod ay embodiment ng iyong personality, wag gumamit ng masyadong general na term gaya ng bilog. :D ) at i-key in ang word verification na automatic na nilang ibibigay!

maghintay ng ilang segundo.... 1..2....3....4...

at voila!!!! may blog ka na!!!!

mantakin mo! ganito lang kadali ang paggawa ng blog! mas nahirapan pa akong magkabisa ng multiplication table nung grade two ako kesa sa paggawa ng blog na ito...

pero itong blog na ito at ay simpleng blog pa lamang naman.

marami rami pang options katulad ng paggawa ng blog sa friendster, my space, windows live today, wordpress, at kung anik anik pa... pero katulad ng pagdadala mo ng apelyido ng tatay mo, ganito rin ang sistema ng pangalan o ng address ng blog mo. laging kaakibat ng blog address mo ang domain na naghohost ng blog mo. katulad nitong sa akin: www.bilogako.blogspot.com

kung gusto mo namang makalaya sa pangalan ng iyong host, kailangan mong bayaran ang sarili mong pangalan. kung nanaisin kong maging www.bilogako.com na lamang ang blog address na ito, kailangan ko pang iregister ang domain na iyon at bayaran panghabambuhay o kung hanggang kailan tatagal ang internet sa mundong ibabaw ang blog address na uniquely sa akin lamang... parang pagpapalit ng pangalan... kailangan mong pumunta sa korte at dumadaan ng samu't saring proseso para mapalitan ang apelyidong bagong gahasa o nakngtinapa na kaakibat ng iyong first name(if unfortunately eh etu ang apelyido ng angkan nyo).

(same din to ng mga babaeng mag-aasawa, if mag-papalit ka ng gusto mong apelyido, syempre apelyido ng asawa mo, marami pang proseso)

at syempre higit sa lahat, magbabayad ka.

tunay nga naman: freedom has a price.

pero, currently, masaya naman akong dalhin ang apelyidong blogger. chaka user-friendly naman sya, so in na rin ako. chaka wala akong pambayad, kanjus(kuripot sa lenggwaheng urdu) ako.

well... well...well... bakit nga ba ako gumawa ng ikatlong blog?

una, kasi pag trip kong mag-express ng sarili ko in my native languange, magagawa ko. yung isa ko kasing blog, sinusubukan kong pure english sana para mahasa pa ng tuluyan ang aking kakayanang makipagtalastasan sa lenggwaheng banyaga. gwaheheheh...

chaka isa pa, para naman wala lang... mas less serious. hindi naman siguro sa pagiging schizophrenic,pero sa blog na ito, yung kababawang side naman ang ipapakita ko.

ayun... mas maraming blog, mas masaya! wish ko lang.... gwahehehehe....